Ohhhh hi!

Blogging is just like writing in a diary for me; I forget to do it.

For the first time ever, I have made a few New Years resolutions.
1. Try very hard to be nice to people. This means waiting longer not snapping at stupidity, not as many mean looks, no rude comments just loud enough to hear...etc. Sure, shit will happen I'm sure, but I have to try!!
2. Start a savings account. *start*
3. Be more responsible around the house. For instance, cleaning more than once a month. You know...normal stuff.

That is it. It's three more than usual. LET'S DO THIS!!

zoom zoom

ouch! but nbd, right??

the other car.

on sunday, my boyfriend got my car in an accident.

no one was hurt and no one was cited (it was bf's fault. duh).

after seeing the damage, i was slightly relieved because i pictured it waaay worse than it was.

the bf and i both took yesterday off work and brought the car to a body shop. they estimated $4,800 worth of damage.

UMM. i don't know cars, but i really thought it was going to be under $2k.

weeeell, today we received a call and OF COURSE there is more damage than they thought.

i may end up having to get a new car for under $5k. i didn't love my car, but i didn't hate it!

i want my zoom zoom back.

on the up side, my rental car is a dodge avenger and it's real smoooth.

so much for a mini vaca

on our way to breakfast, 04.07.12
show low, arizona

i've really been craving a vacation lately. i just want to get out of this place and relax! i don't have a stressful job, but i just want to go to an island and have some margaritas all day on the beach while reading. since i can't do that, i decided i would drive up to show low to visit my mom for a day or two and at least read the hunger games (i gave in. i'm very intrigued by the world's fascination with it). it is a 3.5 hour drive up through the mountains. i hated the drive. i get there around 3:30 and my mom and i get ready and head to happy hour at the clubhouse. we had drinks, appetizers, and ordered dinner to go. the next morning, we leave for breakfast around 10:30. after we eat, we start shopping and she takes me to a boutique that is owned by family. everything is way too expensive and clearly overpriced just because they can. i refuse to pay $54 for this super cute shirt and i refuse to let my mother buy it either (who had just said 20 minutes ago how she had no money). i literally told her 15 different ways NO i do not want it. i could have let the woman buy it just to make her happy for that second, but i refuse. we finally leave the shop and head to a thrift store. i found a few things to decorate the house with and that cheered me up. after one more stop, we head back to the house because my sister is about to arrive. i'm really not feeling this show low vaca anymore. i wanted to just do nothing in the peace and quiet but i hadn't done that yet. i was dreading the drive back home and knew that if i wanted one completely relaxing day, then i'd have to head back home right then. i packed up my stuff and started my drive. i'm sad that i kind of ruined the afternoon with my mom with my attitude, but she was really driving me nuts over other little things. i got home about 7 last night, and i haven't read once but at least i feel more relaxed. i have a feeling i won't be making another trip up to show low for a while because of the awful drive. i miss seeing my mom more often and wish i had taken advantage of the time she lived just 30 minutes away.

the night owl curse

pintersest.

friday night i didn't go to bed until 4 am.

i don't like going to bed early. i feel like i'm wasting time. 

not that i do anything productive other than watch tv or play on the computer, 

but why go to sleep when i could be doing things?

but, i love me some sleep. love.it.

so since it was my day off, i accidentally slept until 4 pm.

yikes.

later i stated googling some stuff on sleeping.

apparently it's actually important to get 7.5 to 9 hours of sleep a night.

there is mental and physical impairment (see).

maybe i'm not actually bipolar, but just have "chronic sleep debt".

starting tonight, i will be going to bed by 10.

i am always so tired but i just deal with it.

pinterest.

but if the lack of sleep is making me extra moody,

then i'm going to try extra hard.

here's to a less grouchy me!

california dream crushed...oh well

mission beach, california. taken by me.

i love san diego and have wanted to live there since i was a kid.

the ocean, the sand, the mountains, the trees...i just love it!

i live in arizona and the only thing i like about it is that it does not snow.

my boyfriend and i were going to move to sd last month,
but he decided it wouldn't be a good idea since he couldn't find a job
and we didn't have much savings...and i sadly agreed.
a few weeks ago, we moved into a new apartment just a mile from our previous one.
the rent is less and we have an extra bedroom.
so far, we enjoy this place much better.

once we get some extra cash and i figure out what colors i want,
we will start decorating. for now, we are using what we have. so for starters,
we mounted the 32" flat screen my mom is "letting us use"...

we actually have a living room!

i'm experimenting with the coffee table on the wall and everything on it. 

oh, we got this new couch two weeks ago. we love it! we had to splurge on 

it, but we had no furniture...since we sold most of it when we thought 

we were moving to sd...where i could be doing this whenever i want:

oh just me having a beer while looking at mission beach

one day...one day...

let go of regrets

at home after cleaning it

my favorite band ever-of-all-time is 311. 

they have a line in their song "all mixed up" that goes: 

"you've got to trust your instincts and let go of regrets". 

i've always loved that line because i regret 

74% of the things i do, wondering if i did the right thing.

for years i've pictured the line tattooed on me. 

i put EXTRA THOUGHT into it because i'm extremely picky 

about everything handwriting so, after about five different 

placement possibilities and 15+ font ideas, i was finally ready.

i went in, looked over the drawing and said "let's do this!". 

upon getting home and washing it off afterwards, i noticed it 

wasn't as perfect as i had thought it was. 

the font is the same, but the top line of the tattoo 

is more condensed than the bottom line (AKA the pretty line). 

i don't hate the top line, but they should be the same!!! 

i'm obviously still bitter about it and i am self conscious showing it to people.

this is my 11th tattoo, one would think i'd know better to

examine every aspect of the drawing. well, now you do. 

but like that tat says, i gotta just let it go!

long story short: i'm not happy with it.

close-up you can really see the difference. hmf

here we go...

pinterest.

blogs. i want one, but about what? i have no idea, but here i go...

i love fashion, music, and decorating but i'm not gifted in any of those areas. 

i'm very inspired to try new things, but am so far too lazy so far to go for it. 

we'll see.

when i was younger, i had several 'zines.

i'm not sure if these are still around (why wouldn't they be?) 

but they were e-mail magazines that other kids my age made via AOL. 

i loved designing and putting the issues together.

 i would spend hours every single day working on them 

and i enjoyed every single second of it. 

now, instead of a weekly/monthly issue, i can post things whenever! 

does anyone care what i have to say anymore? 

probably not, but i'm doing this anyway!